found it

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done

did alot of growing up on saturday night and sunday. well today too. but that's not the point.

i voluntarily stalked kare home to talk to her. happy she's my discipler.

things that happened about 9 months ago happened again that night at dinner when everyone left.

when a raw nerve is not merely touched, but plucked, twirled and then violently wranged, you'd like to reach over, do something to express your rage i suppose. but words cut deeper, so that's what i did.

some call that point "turning", it's quite a strong word. for me, it was more of "realising".

where you're most weak, there would be the point of attack. not a subtle shoot-and-miss but very full-on.

yay! i forgot.

then i kenna LOR.

now, the fruits from that day are rotting.

stupid actions.

i learnt to separate person from deed,
separate human from the other forces at work.

you are not at fault,
if you know who you are.

i just have to settle a very deep-rooted thing about that word.

so i hope you won't take offense cos it doesn't really matter who said it actually.

1:26 p.m. - 2007-10-08

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not against flesh and blood

this is the first of a new web log.
not really a diary cos although it's private i'm still gonna self censor.

alrights.

here we go,

1:15 p.m. - 2007-10-07

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